1 00:00:19,437 --> 00:00:23,566 - DEAR DIARY - 2 00:01:54,741 --> 00:01:57,827 - CHAPTER I: ON MY VESPA - 3 00:01:59,954 --> 00:02:01,789 - DEAR DIARY, - 4 00:02:04,584 --> 00:02:06,544 - THERE'S ONE THING - 5 00:02:09,964 --> 00:02:14,844 - I LIKE THE MOST - 6 00:03:58,573 --> 00:04:01,951 Summer in Rome cinemas are closed. 7 00:04:02,744 --> 00:04:06,372 All you can see is "Sex, Love and Shepherding", 8 00:04:07,248 --> 00:04:12,211 "Bestial Desires", "Snow White and the 7 Blacks", 9 00:04:13,588 --> 00:04:16,549 or horror films like "Henry: Portrait of a Serial Killer", 10 00:04:17,925 --> 00:04:20,219 or some Italian films... 11 00:04:21,387 --> 00:04:24,390 I'm afraid to rethink my life. 12 00:04:24,432 --> 00:04:26,058 I'm a coward. 13 00:04:26,350 --> 00:04:29,562 What happened? Tell me. 14 00:04:29,604 --> 00:04:31,272 I don't know anymore. 15 00:04:31,314 --> 00:04:34,066 Your temples are turning white. 16 00:04:34,108 --> 00:04:35,693 The weight of defeat. 17 00:04:35,735 --> 00:04:38,029 A series of defeats. 18 00:04:38,070 --> 00:04:41,073 What has our generation become? 19 00:04:41,115 --> 00:04:42,950 Publicists, architects... 20 00:04:42,992 --> 00:04:46,370 brokers, congressmen, journalists. 21 00:04:46,996 --> 00:04:50,041 We all changed for the worse. 22 00:04:51,626 --> 00:04:53,377 Sold out, compromised, co-opted. 23 00:04:53,419 --> 00:04:57,882 Why "all"? This fixation with us "all," 24 00:04:57,924 --> 00:04:59,967 "being sold out and co-opted"! 25 00:05:00,384 --> 00:05:02,929 When did we last take a walk? 26 00:05:02,970 --> 00:05:05,056 We stay together out of habit. 27 00:05:05,097 --> 00:05:06,849 You're ashamed of me. 28 00:05:06,891 --> 00:05:11,062 What a headache! Even Optalidon are different now. 29 00:05:11,813 --> 00:05:14,315 Remember the rattle of pills in the old tube? 30 00:05:15,066 --> 00:05:17,693 Everything has really changed. 31 00:05:18,194 --> 00:05:20,613 Know what, Antonio? You have worsened. 32 00:05:20,947 --> 00:05:23,324 You have no real feelings. 33 00:05:23,366 --> 00:05:27,161 We're old, bitter, dishonest. 34 00:05:27,203 --> 00:05:30,623 We used to shout awful, violent slogans. 35 00:05:31,082 --> 00:05:33,626 Look how ugly we've gotten! 36 00:05:34,877 --> 00:05:37,630 You shouted awful, violent slogans. 37 00:05:37,922 --> 00:05:39,674 You've gotten ugly. 38 00:05:40,132 --> 00:05:44,470 I shouted the right slogans and I'm a splendid 40-year-old! 39 00:06:19,005 --> 00:06:23,926 What I like the most is to see houses, neighborhoods. 40 00:06:23,968 --> 00:06:27,847 My favorite neighborhood is the Garbatella. 41 00:06:28,806 --> 00:06:32,018 I stroll through the old housing project. 42 00:07:00,421 --> 00:07:04,008 I don't like to see only the facades. 43 00:07:04,050 --> 00:07:07,887 I like to see the inside too. 44 00:07:07,929 --> 00:07:10,348 I ring the buzzer 45 00:07:10,681 --> 00:07:16,646 and pretend I'm location scouting... for a film. 46 00:07:16,687 --> 00:07:21,067 The tenant asks me what the film is about. 47 00:07:21,108 --> 00:07:22,485 I don't know what to say... 48 00:07:23,235 --> 00:07:28,074 It’s a film about a Trotskyist pastry chef 49 00:07:29,408 --> 00:07:35,748 in Italy during the 1950s. A musical. 50 00:07:36,248 --> 00:07:40,294 Not bad, a musical comedy about a Trotskyist pastry chef 51 00:07:41,128 --> 00:07:43,798 in the conformist Italy of the '50s! 52 00:07:48,094 --> 00:07:49,553 On my Vespa, 53 00:07:49,595 --> 00:07:54,976 I enjoy looking at penthouses where I'd like to live. 54 00:07:55,017 --> 00:08:00,106 I see myself renovating those penthouses, 55 00:08:00,690 --> 00:08:06,153 whose owners... have no intention of selling. 56 00:08:06,195 --> 00:08:10,950 One day, a penthouse which seemed more affordable, 57 00:08:10,992 --> 00:08:14,453 Silvia and I went up to take a look at it. 58 00:08:15,329 --> 00:08:17,081 We asked the price. 59 00:08:17,123 --> 00:08:20,668 "$700 a square foot." 60 00:08:21,002 --> 00:08:22,837 $700 a square foot?! 61 00:08:22,878 --> 00:08:26,007 "You can't talk square feet", 62 00:08:26,048 --> 00:08:29,969 "via Dandolo is a historic street," 63 00:08:30,011 --> 00:08:32,555 "Garibaldi fought here." 64 00:08:35,766 --> 00:08:38,644 I may be nuts, 65 00:08:38,686 --> 00:08:40,688 but I love this bridge. 66 00:08:40,730 --> 00:08:44,150 I need to cross it twice a day. 67 00:09:17,183 --> 00:09:21,729 You know what I was thinking? A very sad thing: 68 00:09:21,771 --> 00:09:25,983 even in a more decent society than this one, 69 00:09:26,692 --> 00:09:29,528 I'll only feel at ease with a minority of people. 70 00:09:29,987 --> 00:09:32,740 Not like in those films where a couple 71 00:09:32,782 --> 00:09:35,826 fights on a desert island 72 00:09:35,868 --> 00:09:37,953 because the filmmaker doesn't believe in people. 73 00:09:37,995 --> 00:09:42,166 I believe in people. I just don't believe in the majority of people. 74 00:09:42,208 --> 00:09:45,878 I'll always be in tune with a minority. 75 00:09:45,920 --> 00:09:47,213 Good luck! 76 00:09:52,760 --> 00:09:59,141 My secret dream has always been to dance well. 77 00:10:00,059 --> 00:10:03,187 "Flashdance" was the film... 78 00:10:03,896 --> 00:10:06,941 that changed my life. 79 00:10:06,982 --> 00:10:13,114 It was a film about dancing, about knowing how to dance. 80 00:10:13,155 --> 00:10:15,950 But in the end I just watch. 81 00:10:15,991 --> 00:10:20,621 Which is fine, but it's something else altogether. 82 00:12:15,861 --> 00:12:17,529 You know what my dream is? 83 00:12:17,863 --> 00:12:20,366 To know how to dance. 84 00:12:20,908 --> 00:12:22,576 I was never the same 85 00:12:22,618 --> 00:12:26,580 after I saw "Flashdance", with Jennifer Beals. 86 00:12:26,956 --> 00:12:30,542 Is that dancer Jennifer Beals? 87 00:12:31,418 --> 00:12:34,964 How I envy them! Is she Jennifer Beals? 88 00:13:07,913 --> 00:13:11,292 Spinaceto, a recent housing development. 89 00:13:12,293 --> 00:13:15,254 Bad-mouthed by everyone. 90 00:13:15,754 --> 00:13:17,965 "This sure isn't Spinaceto!" 91 00:13:18,590 --> 00:13:20,718 "You live in Spinaceto or something?" 92 00:13:21,218 --> 00:13:25,055 I remember reading a story 93 00:13:25,806 --> 00:13:28,475 called "Escape from Spinaceto", 94 00:13:28,934 --> 00:13:32,396 about a kid who got out of there 95 00:13:32,438 --> 00:13:34,315 and never went back. 96 00:13:34,648 --> 00:13:37,192 So, let's go see Spinaceto. 97 00:13:53,959 --> 00:13:57,546 Spinaceto! I expected worse. It’s not bad! 98 00:13:57,588 --> 00:14:00,466 I was just thinking that. 99 00:14:44,635 --> 00:14:48,222 Casalpalocco. Driving by these homes, 100 00:14:48,847 --> 00:14:53,060 I smell jogging suits, 101 00:14:53,102 --> 00:14:56,980 video tapes, watch dogs in the garden, 102 00:14:58,190 --> 00:15:01,777 pizzas in cardboard boxes. 103 00:15:04,405 --> 00:15:07,491 Why did they come here 30 years ago? 104 00:15:13,664 --> 00:15:17,709 Why did you move to Casalpalocco? 105 00:15:17,751 --> 00:15:20,587 - This green, this peace... - Yeah, green... 106 00:15:20,629 --> 00:15:24,633 - You moved here around 1961... - '62. 107 00:15:24,675 --> 00:15:28,429 - 30 years ago, Rome... - Was a marvelous city! 108 00:15:28,470 --> 00:15:30,097 It’s different here. 109 00:15:30,139 --> 00:15:33,267 But Rome was beautiful then! 110 00:15:33,684 --> 00:15:35,060 That's what frightens me. 111 00:15:35,686 --> 00:15:39,940 Watch dogs, videos, slippers. 112 00:15:55,164 --> 00:15:56,373 Jennifer Beals? 113 00:16:01,879 --> 00:16:03,630 - Yes? - From "Flashdance"? 114 00:16:05,799 --> 00:16:08,135 - What'd he say? - "Who are you." 115 00:16:08,177 --> 00:16:12,806 I’d always liked to know how to dance. 116 00:16:14,266 --> 00:16:17,478 If I lived in Emilia Romagna, 117 00:16:18,103 --> 00:16:21,231 there are old people’s homes, hospitals that work, 118 00:16:21,273 --> 00:16:23,692 dance schools, 119 00:16:23,734 --> 00:16:26,320 tango, merengue... 120 00:16:26,361 --> 00:16:32,159 When I hear music, I could dance instead of watch. 121 00:16:32,910 --> 00:16:35,412 Those shoes are very comfortable! 122 00:16:35,954 --> 00:16:40,125 So simple, yet... They must feel good on your feet. 123 00:16:41,001 --> 00:16:43,086 Yes, very comfortable. 124 00:16:50,636 --> 00:16:52,387 What'd you say? "Crazy"? 125 00:16:54,765 --> 00:16:55,849 Wasn't it "crazy"? 126 00:16:58,227 --> 00:16:59,394 What does that mean? 127 00:17:00,521 --> 00:17:07,361 Special, peculiar, almost crazy, but not quite. 128 00:17:30,968 --> 00:17:32,636 Dumb, almost dumb. 129 00:17:35,556 --> 00:17:37,266 Even in other cities 130 00:17:37,307 --> 00:17:41,770 I only like to look at houses. 131 00:17:41,812 --> 00:17:48,068 What would be great is a film just of houses. Panning shots of houses. 132 00:17:48,610 --> 00:17:52,030 Garbatella, 1927. 133 00:17:56,201 --> 00:17:59,580 Olympic Village, 1960. 134 00:18:03,875 --> 00:18:06,587 Tufello, 1960. 135 00:18:09,673 --> 00:18:12,467 Vigne Nuove, 1987. 136 00:18:16,513 --> 00:18:19,683 Monteverde, 1939. 137 00:19:12,152 --> 00:19:15,113 - HENRY: PORTRAIT OF A SERIAL KILLER - 138 00:19:25,457 --> 00:19:28,335 Hey, am I stuttering? Fork over the $50 and go to hell. 139 00:19:28,877 --> 00:19:30,170 Here's your 50 bucks. 140 00:20:02,369 --> 00:20:04,246 Need a hand? 141 00:20:04,746 --> 00:20:08,875 Otis, do you need a hand or can you do it by yourself? 142 00:20:28,353 --> 00:20:31,898 I wander around the city for hours 143 00:20:31,940 --> 00:20:36,987 trying to remember who said good things about this film. 144 00:20:37,028 --> 00:20:40,115 I read a review, 145 00:20:40,157 --> 00:20:43,535 I read something positive about "Henry"... 146 00:20:44,369 --> 00:20:48,623 Suddenly I remember I find the review 147 00:20:48,957 --> 00:20:53,003 and copy it in my diary. Here it is: 148 00:20:53,044 --> 00:20:57,257 "Henry kills people, but he's a kind of good guy," 149 00:20:57,758 --> 00:21:00,552 "Only facts count for him." 150 00:21:00,594 --> 00:21:03,096 "Otis is the real scum." 151 00:21:03,597 --> 00:21:06,975 "Henry has a mad solidarity with his victims," 152 00:21:07,017 --> 00:21:09,603 "a prince of annihilation," 153 00:21:09,644 --> 00:21:12,189 "promising a merciful death." 154 00:21:12,230 --> 00:21:14,316 "The director awakens the public" 155 00:21:14,357 --> 00:21:18,779 "to its worst nightmare: a shower of gore," 156 00:21:18,820 --> 00:21:22,741 "impaled eyes, martyred fresh: abomination." 157 00:21:22,783 --> 00:21:27,245 "Henry: the first to dismember" 158 00:21:27,287 --> 00:21:30,957 "the criminal philosophy of the Hollywood racists." 159 00:21:33,877 --> 00:21:38,006 I wonder if whoever wrote this, 160 00:21:39,174 --> 00:21:46,681 before falling asleep, has a moment of remorse. 161 00:21:50,227 --> 00:21:56,149 - When did this begin? When did all this begin? - I don't know. 162 00:21:56,441 --> 00:21:58,318 Maybe when you wrote: 163 00:21:58,360 --> 00:22:01,530 "This Korean film was a costume melodrama", 164 00:22:01,571 --> 00:22:04,574 "Demented clothes and hats." 165 00:22:05,033 --> 00:22:07,994 "Super-feminist, flamboyant and diabolical." 166 00:22:08,286 --> 00:22:10,372 "Shot like Spielberg on acid" 167 00:22:10,413 --> 00:22:13,416 "in futuristic rhythms and spaces." 168 00:22:13,875 --> 00:22:17,045 "And then there's Cronenberg's 'Naked Lunch"': 169 00:22:17,087 --> 00:22:21,466 "pure high-budget underground pus." 170 00:22:21,508 --> 00:22:23,176 "A real cult movie." 171 00:22:23,593 --> 00:22:27,013 "It’s not that I. Demme's women are superior." 172 00:22:27,055 --> 00:22:31,810 "Not are they what the proletarians and lumpen" 173 00:22:32,143 --> 00:22:34,063 "of the three circling worlds were for Lin Piao." 174 00:22:34,229 --> 00:22:36,690 "But only his women" 175 00:22:36,731 --> 00:22:40,068 "have the gumption to uphold the righteous side" 176 00:22:40,110 --> 00:22:44,489 "in the War of the imaginary, scalped in hand." 177 00:22:45,156 --> 00:22:49,369 "Before Lula e Sailor join in for the happy ending," 178 00:22:49,411 --> 00:22:51,705 "murmuring "Love me tender", 179 00:22:51,746 --> 00:22:54,708 "Sailor will spend years in the pen" 180 00:22:54,749 --> 00:22:57,419 "shattered human heads will fly," 181 00:22:58,003 --> 00:23:00,922 "dogs will grab cut-off hands," 182 00:23:00,964 --> 00:23:06,136 "hundred of Kools and Marlboros will be smoked..." 183 00:23:23,612 --> 00:23:26,531 I don't know why, but I'd never been 184 00:23:26,573 --> 00:23:28,992 where Pasolini was murdered. 185 00:28:28,708 --> 00:28:32,462 - CHAPTER II: ISLANDS - 186 00:28:50,521 --> 00:28:52,774 The boat arrives in Lipari. 187 00:28:52,815 --> 00:28:57,528 I'm visiting a friend who moved here 11 years ago. 188 00:28:57,570 --> 00:29:01,199 Ever since, he's been studying Joyce's "Ulysses". 189 00:29:02,784 --> 00:29:05,703 I'm beginning to write my film. 190 00:29:05,745 --> 00:29:10,917 I’ve brought press clippings that I'll need for my work, 191 00:29:11,626 --> 00:29:14,379 which I’ve been saving for years. 192 00:29:16,589 --> 00:29:20,218 I know that I'll work in Lipari. 193 00:29:58,756 --> 00:30:01,676 An orange juice, please, 194 00:30:02,969 --> 00:30:04,012 and a sandwich... 195 00:30:05,680 --> 00:30:06,889 mozzarella... 196 00:30:06,931 --> 00:30:10,601 If everybody went on foot, there'd be less accidents. 197 00:30:18,109 --> 00:30:19,652 A sandwich... 198 00:30:21,279 --> 00:30:24,240 Tomato and mozzarella. Thanks. 199 00:31:52,370 --> 00:31:54,705 - What were you watching? - When? 200 00:31:55,540 --> 00:31:56,874 Inside, on television. 201 00:31:56,916 --> 00:32:00,378 It’s not TV, it was a strange film: 202 00:32:00,420 --> 00:32:04,799 Silvana Mangano was a nun. Then she dances in the middle... 203 00:32:04,841 --> 00:32:07,051 - It must happen to you too. - Never! 204 00:32:07,760 --> 00:32:09,846 - You never watch TV? - Never. 205 00:32:10,179 --> 00:32:12,807 I haven't watched TV for 30 years. 206 00:32:14,642 --> 00:32:17,979 You know what Hans Magnus Enzensberger says? 207 00:32:20,565 --> 00:32:22,024 I agree with him. 208 00:33:14,785 --> 00:33:17,163 It’s the first time 209 00:33:17,205 --> 00:33:20,291 in all my years here that's there's such confusion. 210 00:33:20,833 --> 00:33:23,336 - Believe me? - Yes. 211 00:33:46,150 --> 00:33:49,111 You clip funny news items? 212 00:33:49,153 --> 00:33:56,577 For years, I’ve accumulated dumb information, stupid articles. 213 00:33:56,619 --> 00:33:59,539 Evidently I'm attracted... 214 00:34:01,165 --> 00:34:04,585 by these things. 215 00:34:27,608 --> 00:34:30,194 Too much noise, too much confusion... 216 00:34:30,653 --> 00:34:35,950 We decide to leave for Salina, a quieter island, more domestic. 217 00:34:37,368 --> 00:34:40,371 Gerardo has friends there. They have children. 218 00:34:41,038 --> 00:34:47,461 No, "one" child. In Salina... everyone has one child. 219 00:34:48,921 --> 00:34:54,093 We'll be calm there. Manage to get something done. 220 00:35:00,391 --> 00:35:02,685 You're not being very polite 221 00:35:02,727 --> 00:35:06,981 considering I’ve come to bring your wedding present. 222 00:35:12,361 --> 00:35:13,821 Look who's there! 223 00:35:15,156 --> 00:35:17,241 You won't close the casino down! 224 00:35:17,283 --> 00:35:20,328 - Why all this hatred? - I'll tell you why: 225 00:35:20,369 --> 00:35:22,622 I hate people like you. 226 00:35:22,663 --> 00:35:25,416 You give others false hope, 227 00:35:25,458 --> 00:35:27,918 then toss them in the mud. 228 00:35:28,669 --> 00:35:31,130 Go home, try to calm down. 229 00:35:31,172 --> 00:35:34,884 Take my word: your cathedral will never see the light of day. 230 00:35:45,603 --> 00:35:46,729 You came back. 231 00:35:49,523 --> 00:35:51,484 I have something to tell you. 232 00:35:51,525 --> 00:35:54,487 Hope it's good news. 233 00:35:55,696 --> 00:36:00,493 I'm not sure we can trust her, but I saw Gina today. 234 00:36:00,534 --> 00:36:04,497 Gina says Kit wants to get back at you, at all costs. 235 00:36:05,456 --> 00:36:07,583 That's nothing new. 236 00:36:07,625 --> 00:36:10,378 He told me himself, way back! 237 00:36:14,215 --> 00:36:16,467 I can't believe that for Pietro 238 00:36:16,509 --> 00:36:19,553 these first years will mean nothing. 239 00:36:20,221 --> 00:36:21,972 He’d never know. 240 00:36:22,264 --> 00:36:26,435 He’d never remember this period of intimacy and closeness, 241 00:36:26,477 --> 00:36:28,145 when he needed me so much. 242 00:36:28,562 --> 00:36:31,691 Something big has just happened: 243 00:36:32,024 --> 00:36:33,526 he toilet trained himself. 244 00:36:33,818 --> 00:36:36,487 We were both going to take 2 weeks off work 245 00:36:36,529 --> 00:36:38,280 to do it. 246 00:36:38,739 --> 00:36:42,368 But he did it alone! 247 00:36:42,660 --> 00:36:47,540 He has made no mistakes. He began to behave like an adult. 248 00:36:47,581 --> 00:36:49,750 And the first day of school? 249 00:36:50,793 --> 00:36:56,716 We were up all night, We were worried, angst-ridden. 250 00:36:56,757 --> 00:37:00,219 First day angst. 251 00:37:00,553 --> 00:37:03,514 Pietro just slept. 252 00:37:04,432 --> 00:37:08,477 He didn't know his life would change the next day. 253 00:37:08,769 --> 00:37:09,812 Is he asleep? 254 00:37:11,021 --> 00:37:15,067 He's going through a complicated but transitory phase. 255 00:37:16,026 --> 00:37:19,029 Going from a family regime 256 00:37:19,071 --> 00:37:20,823 to a school regime, where he... 257 00:37:20,865 --> 00:37:24,493 He's asleep, the volume is okay. 258 00:37:25,119 --> 00:37:28,247 Sees lots of children, lots of people. 259 00:38:02,990 --> 00:38:05,367 Daniele! 260 00:38:06,327 --> 00:38:08,329 - What's wrong with him? - Nothing. 261 00:38:11,332 --> 00:38:13,584 I watched TV last night. 262 00:38:13,959 --> 00:38:16,962 - A good program. - "Italy's most wanted". - Very good! 263 00:38:18,005 --> 00:38:20,174 But I didn't get it all... 264 00:38:20,216 --> 00:38:21,967 In that family... 265 00:38:22,009 --> 00:38:23,552 - They upset you? - A little. 266 00:38:23,594 --> 00:38:26,555 They go too far with Pietro. 267 00:38:27,056 --> 00:38:30,226 We have a different relationship with Daniele. 268 00:38:30,976 --> 00:38:33,020 We want another child, 269 00:38:33,062 --> 00:38:36,649 but we're afraid of his reaction. 270 00:38:37,107 --> 00:38:38,275 And we often ask him. 271 00:38:38,317 --> 00:38:42,488 Every 2 or 3 years we ask: "Want a little brother?" 272 00:38:42,530 --> 00:38:44,365 He gets pissed off. 273 00:38:45,491 --> 00:38:46,909 I'm afraid. 274 00:38:48,994 --> 00:38:50,204 We're afraid. 275 00:40:15,372 --> 00:40:16,582 How are you? 276 00:40:16,624 --> 00:40:23,422 Sara, it's Lorenzo, Daniele's Dad. Remember? 277 00:40:24,882 --> 00:40:27,384 Put Dad on, please. 278 00:40:27,718 --> 00:40:29,637 How does the cat go? 279 00:40:32,181 --> 00:40:34,183 And the grasshopper? 280 00:40:34,224 --> 00:40:36,685 The grasshopper goes "cri-cri". 281 00:40:38,896 --> 00:40:42,232 Now put on Dad, please. 282 00:40:42,274 --> 00:40:43,943 And the lamb? 283 00:40:43,984 --> 00:40:46,070 The lamb goes "baaaa". 284 00:40:46,695 --> 00:40:48,948 The rooster goes "cock-a-doodle-doo". 285 00:40:48,989 --> 00:40:50,449 How does... 286 00:40:51,909 --> 00:40:54,453 Sara, please, put Dad on. 287 00:40:54,495 --> 00:40:59,249 The donkey goes "hee-haw". 288 00:40:59,625 --> 00:41:03,420 I don't know all of them. 289 00:41:03,462 --> 00:41:11,462 For years now, Salina was dominated by only children. Each family... 290 00:41:11,720 --> 00:41:15,516 The chick goes "peep-peep". 291 00:41:15,891 --> 00:41:20,896 Each family has one child, only one, 292 00:41:21,605 --> 00:41:25,401 to whom was entrusted the command of the situation. 293 00:41:26,735 --> 00:41:30,781 It was impossible to communicate by phone. 294 00:41:30,823 --> 00:41:32,533 In the homes, 295 00:41:33,033 --> 00:41:37,538 children intercepted all calls... 296 00:41:37,913 --> 00:41:41,750 It’s Rosanna. Dad or Mom there? 297 00:41:42,126 --> 00:41:44,420 Here's Dad. Bye. 298 00:41:47,881 --> 00:41:50,968 Leandro, who am I? 299 00:41:51,010 --> 00:41:53,512 Hello, who's there? I’m Paolo. 300 00:41:53,554 --> 00:41:56,849 What's your name? What's my name? 301 00:41:56,890 --> 00:41:58,183 It's Franco. 302 00:41:58,225 --> 00:41:59,435 And the little pig? 303 00:41:59,810 --> 00:42:00,894 And the hippopotamus? 304 00:42:00,936 --> 00:42:02,646 I don't know the giraffe! 305 00:42:03,480 --> 00:42:04,690 The little pig. 306 00:42:05,858 --> 00:42:08,652 I don't know the swallow! 307 00:42:09,278 --> 00:42:11,405 Who's home, Mom or Dad? 308 00:42:11,739 --> 00:42:16,910 Mom and Dad are here, but I’m gonna tell you a story. 309 00:42:17,911 --> 00:42:19,079 Here goes... 310 00:42:20,289 --> 00:42:24,126 UN-der-stand what I’m say-ing? 311 00:42:29,048 --> 00:42:36,430 - Fine, go ahead. - Understand when I talk? Put Mom on... 312 00:42:38,515 --> 00:42:40,059 The little pig. 313 00:44:20,534 --> 00:44:22,619 Wake up! 314 00:44:25,581 --> 00:44:27,457 No! The light! 315 00:44:27,499 --> 00:44:31,545 Daniele's awake, he's waiting. 316 00:44:31,587 --> 00:44:34,798 Ln 15 minutes it's the worst time of day. 317 00:44:34,840 --> 00:44:36,925 - Why? - It's almost 3:00 A.M. 318 00:44:36,967 --> 00:44:40,053 - The hour of the wolf. - The hour of the wolf! 319 00:44:40,095 --> 00:44:42,681 The hour when we're the loneliest. 320 00:44:42,723 --> 00:44:45,475 Every 3:00 A.M., for 12 years, 321 00:44:45,517 --> 00:44:49,021 Daniele gets in bed with us. You coming? 322 00:44:49,354 --> 00:44:51,190 - May we? - Come in. 323 00:44:51,231 --> 00:44:54,776 - How is it going tonight? Are you scared? - No. 324 00:44:54,818 --> 00:44:56,778 There's lots of us to keep you company. 325 00:44:56,820 --> 00:44:58,614 Under the covers! 326 00:45:01,325 --> 00:45:03,160 - Sure you're not scared? - Yes, yes! 327 00:45:04,411 --> 00:45:08,582 - He's never had a baby-sitter. - Why not? 328 00:45:08,874 --> 00:45:13,253 - We've always stayed with him. - Always! 329 00:45:13,712 --> 00:45:15,130 - You've never gone out? - Never. 330 00:45:15,172 --> 00:45:19,301 So we've read everything: Von Kleist, Hegel. 331 00:45:19,343 --> 00:45:20,802 Spinoza... 332 00:45:20,844 --> 00:45:23,472 We read Federico Tozzi... 333 00:45:23,513 --> 00:45:25,557 - We read all of Xenophon, - Svevo. 334 00:45:25,849 --> 00:45:28,143 - Herodotus... - Then... 335 00:45:29,603 --> 00:45:31,021 Tacitus. 336 00:45:31,063 --> 00:45:32,481 All of Tacitus! 337 00:45:32,522 --> 00:45:34,107 All of it! 338 00:45:35,359 --> 00:45:38,237 Saint Augustine... 339 00:45:38,946 --> 00:45:42,658 - Delfini, Meneghello e Capitini. - Cicero, read and re-read. 340 00:45:42,699 --> 00:45:43,992 And Rousseau... 341 00:45:44,993 --> 00:45:47,496 - And Leibnitz... - Wittgenstein. 342 00:45:59,591 --> 00:46:02,970 Dear Diary, we sail by the island of Panarea. 343 00:46:03,595 --> 00:46:05,806 Gerardo says he's never been, 344 00:46:05,847 --> 00:46:13,605 but points out the nights spots, the discos, the restaurants, the pubs. 345 00:46:16,483 --> 00:46:20,279 We decide not to stop in Panarea. 346 00:46:21,154 --> 00:46:22,823 We sail towards Stromboli, 347 00:46:22,864 --> 00:46:27,619 where we're sure we'll finally manage to... 348 00:46:37,212 --> 00:46:39,548 Some lines of Tibullus came to mind 349 00:46:40,048 --> 00:46:42,592 that describe how we are 350 00:46:42,634 --> 00:46:44,636 in front of the TV. 351 00:46:45,220 --> 00:46:47,931 "Quam juvat": how beautiful... 352 00:46:48,724 --> 00:46:52,728 When we're slumped on a couch: "Cubantem". 353 00:46:52,769 --> 00:46:58,859 To hear the impetuous winds: "Immites ventos", battling amongst themselves. 354 00:47:00,485 --> 00:47:04,531 I remember them thanks to a variety show. 355 00:47:41,526 --> 00:47:44,738 Give it to me! 356 00:47:44,780 --> 00:47:48,367 The list of what you were supposed to make me do! 357 00:47:51,411 --> 00:47:53,747 I must never waste time! 358 00:47:53,789 --> 00:47:55,582 Everyone told me: 359 00:47:55,624 --> 00:48:02,964 on arriving in Stromboli you feel "the menacing presence of the volcano". 360 00:48:03,006 --> 00:48:05,175 Gerardo and I have a fight. 361 00:48:05,217 --> 00:48:09,721 He didn't remind me I was here to work. 362 00:48:09,763 --> 00:48:13,308 I had given him my "to do" list 363 00:48:13,350 --> 00:48:18,230 but all I've done is waste my time. 364 00:48:36,373 --> 00:48:40,252 I’m the Mayor! Glad to meet you, Professor. 365 00:48:40,293 --> 00:48:42,170 Please, be our guests. 366 00:48:42,212 --> 00:48:45,132 No, we'd prefer a hotel, we have to concentrate. 367 00:48:45,924 --> 00:48:48,427 A friend has a perfect place. Come! 368 00:48:48,468 --> 00:48:52,097 We're expecting a Japanese agronomist responsible for the 110,000 acres 369 00:48:52,139 --> 00:48:53,974 around Tokyo. 370 00:48:54,516 --> 00:48:57,811 He wants to talk about my projects. 371 00:48:58,103 --> 00:48:59,771 Riccardo! 372 00:49:00,730 --> 00:49:04,526 He wants to understand the secret of our equilibrium. 373 00:49:05,110 --> 00:49:06,570 It's me! 374 00:49:07,696 --> 00:49:10,198 I've given up the plan for an avenue 375 00:49:10,240 --> 00:49:12,534 with palm trees from L.A.! 376 00:49:14,661 --> 00:49:19,833 I’d like to give this island back the identity it has lost. 377 00:49:19,875 --> 00:49:24,963 Piazzas, streets, gardens, fountains, theaters! 378 00:49:25,589 --> 00:49:29,092 - They have no place to sleep. - That's enough! 379 00:49:30,594 --> 00:49:31,887 Excuse me. 380 00:49:34,473 --> 00:49:38,977 I have so many projects... but they all fall through! 381 00:49:40,353 --> 00:49:42,481 Everyone is so hostile here. 382 00:49:44,065 --> 00:49:46,443 Why are they so hostile? 383 00:49:47,611 --> 00:49:50,197 I need to put these friends up... 384 00:49:52,365 --> 00:49:56,036 The opposite of Amsterdam, where you walk at night, 385 00:49:56,077 --> 00:50:00,290 as if wandering through living rooms, bedrooms... 386 00:50:00,332 --> 00:50:06,004 Everything's lit up, visible, a life... without curtains. 387 00:50:40,997 --> 00:50:44,918 I’m the Mayor, you can't treat me like this! 388 00:50:45,544 --> 00:50:49,256 They have to concentrate three or four days... 389 00:50:50,882 --> 00:50:55,929 They don't cooperate. It's no use. 390 00:50:56,263 --> 00:50:58,640 Must be the volcano's menacing presence. 391 00:50:59,057 --> 00:51:01,518 We have the human material: 392 00:51:02,102 --> 00:51:05,438 there's a mixture between Italians and Germans, 393 00:51:05,772 --> 00:51:07,524 very interesting! 394 00:51:07,566 --> 00:51:12,028 Big families, not like in Salina with zero growth. 395 00:51:12,487 --> 00:51:15,198 I have 3 children, for example. 396 00:51:15,991 --> 00:51:19,077 All this wasted potential! 397 00:51:20,453 --> 00:51:21,997 What a shame! 398 00:51:37,971 --> 00:51:41,725 - Here you have to continue on foot. - Up this way? 399 00:51:41,766 --> 00:51:45,478 Go slow and steady. Sorry, 400 00:51:45,979 --> 00:51:48,982 I’m expecting a call from the Japanese agronomist, 401 00:51:49,024 --> 00:51:51,776 the one responsible for the 110,000 acres. 402 00:51:51,818 --> 00:51:55,947 Fine, goodbye. See you tomorrow, thanks. 403 00:52:44,287 --> 00:52:46,456 There's something hypnotic, 404 00:52:48,083 --> 00:52:51,252 an ancient link... Don't turn around. 405 00:52:52,545 --> 00:52:53,838 Don't turn around! 406 00:52:54,339 --> 00:52:55,382 What's wrong? 407 00:52:55,674 --> 00:52:58,134 A group of Americans, at the rest area. 408 00:52:59,219 --> 00:53:02,263 Do me a favor, I’m embarrassed. 409 00:53:03,765 --> 00:53:08,978 I’d like to know if Sally Spectra told her husband she was pregnant, or not... 410 00:53:10,146 --> 00:53:11,815 "The bold and the Beautiful". 411 00:53:11,856 --> 00:53:15,652 - They are ahead of us in America. - Further on with the episodes. 412 00:53:16,569 --> 00:53:19,322 And did Stephanie learn anything 413 00:53:19,698 --> 00:53:23,368 on her ex-husband's ex-wife. 414 00:54:04,701 --> 00:54:08,872 Whose wife is Nancy? 415 00:54:08,913 --> 00:54:10,623 Thorne's. 416 00:54:22,427 --> 00:54:27,432 Where did Stephanie plant the mikes? 417 00:54:27,932 --> 00:54:33,646 Ln the home of her ex-husband's new wife! 418 00:54:34,230 --> 00:54:36,107 Why? 419 00:54:36,149 --> 00:54:38,526 Because she's jealous! 420 00:54:55,376 --> 00:54:58,338 What was Sally Spectra's problem? 421 00:54:58,880 --> 00:55:04,135 She's pregnant! Does her husband know or not? 422 00:55:18,817 --> 00:55:20,360 She told him! 423 00:55:41,089 --> 00:55:42,257 Ln these episodes? 424 00:55:42,799 --> 00:55:44,592 Ln this phase, 425 00:55:44,634 --> 00:55:48,221 Nancy is madly in love with her tennis teacher. 426 00:55:49,305 --> 00:55:52,016 There's no hope for Thorne! 427 00:56:00,608 --> 00:56:04,445 I’m so envious of the music of Panarea. 428 00:56:04,946 --> 00:56:07,574 I’d like to ask Ennio Morricone to write some music, 429 00:56:07,949 --> 00:56:12,120 a soundtrack for the village. 430 00:56:12,996 --> 00:56:17,250 - Could be an idea. - Like that western... How does it go? 431 00:56:20,670 --> 00:56:21,796 Exactly. 432 00:56:21,838 --> 00:56:25,049 Good luck with everything. 433 00:56:25,091 --> 00:56:26,926 We may never see each other again... 434 00:56:26,968 --> 00:56:31,556 The island lit up by a great photography director. 435 00:56:31,598 --> 00:56:37,812 Storaro doing the lighting and the sunset of Stromboli! 436 00:56:37,854 --> 00:56:42,400 Rebuilding Stromboli from scratch! Rebuilding Italy, 437 00:56:42,692 --> 00:56:44,068 a new way of life. 438 00:56:44,110 --> 00:56:47,196 New light, new sounds, 439 00:56:47,238 --> 00:56:51,326 a new way of talking, new colors, new tastes... 440 00:56:51,367 --> 00:56:55,204 All new! 441 00:57:39,832 --> 00:57:41,960 Okay, listen, we're going to Panarea. 442 00:57:45,004 --> 00:57:46,589 We're going to Panarea. 443 00:58:36,931 --> 00:58:38,766 Welcome! Excuse me... 444 00:58:38,808 --> 00:58:42,812 - Welcome to Panarea. Where are you coming from? - Stromboli. 445 00:58:43,146 --> 00:58:44,480 What a drag! 446 00:58:44,856 --> 00:58:48,026 I've been preparing a party in honor of bad taste 447 00:58:48,359 --> 00:58:50,778 for the last year. 448 00:58:51,070 --> 00:58:54,032 Helmut Berger's coming in his underwear. 449 00:58:54,532 --> 00:58:58,494 Saturday there'll be my divorce party. 450 00:58:58,536 --> 00:59:00,913 Do you always organize things like that? 451 00:59:00,955 --> 00:59:05,752 My company does everything: cocktail parties, trips... 452 00:59:05,793 --> 00:59:08,921 A white elephant for an exotic dinner, 453 00:59:08,963 --> 00:59:11,340 a special photographer for a wedding ceremony. 454 00:59:11,382 --> 00:59:14,302 A Watusi to liven up a party. 455 00:59:14,677 --> 00:59:17,847 Ideas, creativity, atmosphere, networking. 456 00:59:18,139 --> 00:59:19,766 Thanks and goodbye! 457 00:59:47,710 --> 00:59:51,672 Dear Diary, I’m happy only at sea, sailing, 458 00:59:51,714 --> 00:59:55,551 from the island I've left 459 00:59:55,593 --> 00:59:59,472 to the one I’m going to. 460 01:00:00,014 --> 01:00:02,100 We're sailing towards Alicudi, 461 01:00:03,434 --> 01:00:07,438 the remotest and wildest island. 462 01:00:09,440 --> 01:00:14,112 Bet you're one of these opposed to "Italy’s Most Wanted". 463 01:00:15,988 --> 01:00:19,367 Can we deny Ulysses, after the fall of Troy, 464 01:00:19,408 --> 01:00:21,744 the right to roam? 465 01:00:21,786 --> 01:00:25,456 To stop at Circe's, Calypso's, Nausicaa's? 466 01:00:25,498 --> 01:00:27,166 Certainly not. 467 01:00:27,208 --> 01:00:29,961 Otherwise there'd be no Odyssey! 468 01:00:30,628 --> 01:00:35,716 But we can't deny his family's right to look for me. 469 01:00:37,760 --> 01:00:40,888 His son Telemacus wanders around the Greek Islands 470 01:00:41,973 --> 01:00:43,683 looking for his father 471 01:00:43,724 --> 01:00:46,519 with a single message, "Wanted: Ulysses". 472 01:01:13,421 --> 01:01:14,672 Good morning. 473 01:01:16,132 --> 01:01:17,884 Italy can't be saved. 474 01:01:19,886 --> 01:01:22,638 - He's waiting for you. - Who? 475 01:01:22,680 --> 01:01:24,724 A man who refused success. 476 01:01:25,224 --> 01:01:29,520 Hates narcissism. Everyone here does. 477 01:01:30,730 --> 01:01:34,317 Alicudi welcomes only those who think like Alicudi. 478 01:01:42,742 --> 01:01:44,785 Here you'll find energy to work. 479 01:01:45,244 --> 01:01:48,039 Alicudi gives more than other islands. 480 01:01:48,080 --> 01:01:50,708 I know. I've been told. 481 01:01:52,627 --> 01:01:54,754 - Ls it far? - Yes. 482 01:01:57,215 --> 01:01:59,050 Any other roads? 483 01:01:59,592 --> 01:02:01,719 There are no roads. 484 01:02:01,761 --> 01:02:03,304 There aren't any roads! 485 01:02:04,931 --> 01:02:09,101 Listen, this person... who is expecting us. 486 01:02:09,143 --> 01:02:13,231 He wrote a successful book. Too successful. 487 01:02:13,648 --> 01:02:15,024 Too successful! 488 01:02:15,066 --> 01:02:17,443 He came here to atone. 489 01:02:19,278 --> 01:02:22,823 - Alicudi is "the" island. - I know. 490 01:02:24,450 --> 01:02:26,035 I don't like the other islands. 491 01:02:27,495 --> 01:02:29,163 They are all corrupted. 492 01:02:30,873 --> 01:02:33,709 They don't know how to live alone. 493 01:02:34,043 --> 01:02:35,795 Here everyone lives alone. 494 01:02:47,932 --> 01:02:50,351 Enzensberger... 495 01:02:51,227 --> 01:02:56,232 says television is nothingness. Fine. 496 01:02:57,358 --> 01:03:00,528 But prove to me that the soccer match 497 01:03:00,569 --> 01:03:03,572 Honduras-Belgium 3 to 2, with all its thrills, 498 01:03:03,614 --> 01:03:06,784 was worth nothing. - Actually... 499 01:03:08,035 --> 01:03:11,747 That nothing seemed a lot to me. And to you! 500 01:03:11,789 --> 01:03:13,499 Okay, for me too. 501 01:03:19,630 --> 01:03:23,551 - That last minute penalty... - Yes, but I have a problem to solve. 502 01:03:24,677 --> 01:03:27,013 There are no shutters. 503 01:03:28,347 --> 01:03:29,765 I know... 504 01:03:31,517 --> 01:03:36,605 tomorrow morning I’ll be awake at dawn. 505 01:03:39,358 --> 01:03:42,528 I can only sleep in pitch black. 506 01:03:43,029 --> 01:03:45,740 - Yes, I admit it. - What? 507 01:03:46,615 --> 01:03:49,785 I've gone a bit overboard with television. 508 01:03:49,827 --> 01:03:51,454 Yeah, okay... 509 01:03:53,956 --> 01:03:56,959 - But I’m over it now. - Good. 510 01:03:57,543 --> 01:03:59,670 It's peaceful here, no? 511 01:04:02,048 --> 01:04:03,674 On this island... 512 01:04:19,940 --> 01:04:21,400 You're here? 513 01:04:21,442 --> 01:04:26,072 I never go out because men are scary. 514 01:04:26,113 --> 01:04:28,324 I can't sleep with light; 515 01:04:28,366 --> 01:04:32,161 there's no shutters. Do you have any tape? 516 01:04:33,245 --> 01:04:35,414 I want to put together... 517 01:04:35,831 --> 01:04:37,750 I found this cardboard. 518 01:04:37,792 --> 01:04:42,421 I want to live here without roots. Our roots are too heavy. 519 01:04:43,798 --> 01:04:48,511 All these years I've been ashamed of Italy. 520 01:04:48,969 --> 01:04:51,222 Ashamed of the other islands: 521 01:04:51,722 --> 01:04:55,226 so greedy, overfed, ignorant and narcissistic. 522 01:04:56,102 --> 01:05:00,940 Where people who don't feel guilty live. 523 01:05:03,317 --> 01:05:06,612 We've retired here to think of others. 524 01:05:07,321 --> 01:05:13,744 Italians are one of the most vulgar people on earth. 525 01:05:14,453 --> 01:05:18,290 This country has such a desperate need to laugh. 526 01:05:19,208 --> 01:05:20,960 What's there to laugh about? 527 01:05:22,169 --> 01:05:24,463 Can I have the crust? 528 01:05:24,505 --> 01:05:28,968 We've been in Alicudi a few days. 529 01:05:29,009 --> 01:05:32,721 It's really a different island from the others 530 01:05:33,347 --> 01:05:37,977 and we finally succeed in concentrating. 531 01:05:38,978 --> 01:05:40,729 Here it's very calm. 532 01:05:45,359 --> 01:05:47,486 Deadly calm. 533 01:05:48,821 --> 01:05:50,614 Are you working? 534 01:05:50,990 --> 01:05:54,660 I’m writing my diary for now, but... 535 01:05:54,702 --> 01:05:56,537 I’m writing to the Pope 536 01:05:58,497 --> 01:06:00,666 because he excommunicated soap operas. 537 01:06:01,083 --> 01:06:04,545 He says they harm family togetherness. 538 01:06:05,463 --> 01:06:07,131 Dear Holy Father, 539 01:06:08,048 --> 01:06:10,885 forgive me, but you are wrong, 540 01:06:11,302 --> 01:06:14,597 our families are more and more withdrawn. 541 01:06:15,097 --> 01:06:17,308 Thanks to soap operas 542 01:06:17,349 --> 01:06:21,854 we express interest in other, faraway families 543 01:06:21,896 --> 01:06:25,941 with whom we share problems, dramas and joys. 544 01:06:26,525 --> 01:06:29,653 "Ines, a Secretary", 10:30 A.M. 545 01:06:30,738 --> 01:06:32,990 "Flamingo Road", 12:50 P.M. 546 01:06:33,282 --> 01:06:35,659 "Falconcrest", 2:00 P.M. 547 01:06:35,701 --> 01:06:37,703 "Maria", 2:25 P.M. 548 01:06:38,037 --> 01:06:41,665 "Santa Barbara", same time, different channel. 549 01:06:41,999 --> 01:06:44,126 "Celeste", 4:25 P.M. 550 01:06:45,085 --> 01:06:47,713 "The Bold and the Beautiful", 7:15 P.M. 551 01:06:51,133 --> 01:06:53,302 A few days without TV, 552 01:06:53,344 --> 01:06:55,846 but I don't miss it. 553 01:06:56,472 --> 01:06:59,975 - On this island... - On this island? 554 01:07:00,017 --> 01:07:02,019 There's no electricity. 555 01:07:02,311 --> 01:07:03,311 So? 556 01:07:03,562 --> 01:07:06,106 There's no TV here. 557 01:07:06,398 --> 01:07:09,902 Television! 558 01:07:13,531 --> 01:07:15,658 Elevator! 559 01:07:16,784 --> 01:07:19,036 Telephone! 560 01:07:20,246 --> 01:07:22,039 Hot water! 561 01:07:22,831 --> 01:07:24,333 Wait for me! 562 01:07:25,960 --> 01:07:27,670 Television! 563 01:07:30,756 --> 01:07:35,594 How can you live without TV? Stop! 564 01:07:35,970 --> 01:07:39,265 Hans Magnus Enzensberger stirs my pity 565 01:07:39,306 --> 01:07:42,977 when he says TV transmits nothingness! 566 01:07:44,812 --> 01:07:46,397 Stop! 567 01:07:46,689 --> 01:07:50,025 Karl Popper, you're mistaken! 568 01:07:50,484 --> 01:07:54,572 TV is not a monster corrupting children. 569 01:07:55,239 --> 01:08:00,494 Children don't become moronic 570 01:08:00,953 --> 01:08:05,874 watching TV, they daydream 571 01:08:06,375 --> 01:08:12,506 as in old times they daydreamed listening to fables and legends. 572 01:08:15,426 --> 01:08:18,679 - CHAPTER III: DOCTORS - 573 01:08:46,957 --> 01:08:53,339 Dear Diary, I've kept the prescriptions accumulated in a year 574 01:08:54,632 --> 01:08:57,051 and all the notes I took 575 01:08:57,092 --> 01:09:01,263 after every doctor's appointment. 576 01:09:02,014 --> 01:09:05,517 Nothing in this chapter is invented: 577 01:09:06,685 --> 01:09:08,646 prescriptions, 578 01:09:09,271 --> 01:09:11,231 doctors' appointments, 579 01:09:11,690 --> 01:09:13,776 conversations with doctors. 580 01:09:20,074 --> 01:09:23,619 At home after 1:30 P.M. Thanks, bye. 581 01:09:24,286 --> 01:09:27,331 At home after 1:30 P.M., we can... 582 01:09:33,337 --> 01:09:36,382 It's my last session of chemotherapy, 583 01:09:36,423 --> 01:09:38,717 treatment for cancer. 584 01:09:39,426 --> 01:09:41,387 I've decided to film it. 585 01:09:47,393 --> 01:09:50,979 He can, but inevitably... 586 01:09:52,147 --> 01:09:53,899 Well, that's true, though. 587 01:09:54,483 --> 01:09:56,318 No, that's not true. 588 01:10:00,114 --> 01:10:01,824 Careful with the ear. 589 01:10:08,372 --> 01:10:10,749 - How is it now? Too low? - No, no, go ahead. 590 01:10:15,754 --> 01:10:17,840 Is it tight enough? 591 01:10:34,398 --> 01:10:35,858 Is it okay? 592 01:11:19,401 --> 01:11:23,447 - Doctor? - Yes? - Ls there Deticene in there? 593 01:11:25,365 --> 01:11:27,493 Better not to know! Does it sting? 594 01:11:27,534 --> 01:11:30,746 A little. Let's leave it, but stick around. 595 01:11:31,330 --> 01:11:35,125 One day I started to itch especially at night. 596 01:11:36,084 --> 01:11:41,381 I called it hives, but it was nothing of the sort. 597 01:11:42,591 --> 01:11:47,387 I’d heard of a famous Dermatological Institute in Rome. 598 01:11:48,305 --> 01:11:51,350 People come at dawn, even from out of the town, 599 01:11:51,391 --> 01:11:55,687 they take a number and wait their turn. 600 01:12:17,584 --> 01:12:22,881 Moretti Giovanni, born in Brunico 19/8/1953. 601 01:12:23,340 --> 01:12:27,344 - Have you ever been treated for this before? - No, it's the first time. 602 01:12:27,386 --> 01:12:30,764 - What's wrong with you? - I have a terrible itch. 603 01:12:30,806 --> 01:12:34,268 - Since when? - Almost a month. 604 01:12:34,309 --> 01:12:37,646 - Where? - On my feet and arms. 605 01:12:37,688 --> 01:12:40,440 - When is it worst? - During the night. 606 01:12:41,108 --> 01:12:43,026 The skin is a little dry... 607 01:12:45,279 --> 01:12:47,239 Let's look here... 608 01:12:48,198 --> 01:12:51,410 I was afraid it was scabies... 609 01:12:51,451 --> 01:12:55,831 No, that's a disease that usually affects other social classes. 610 01:13:04,131 --> 01:13:06,216 Yes, there's a reaction. 611 01:13:07,092 --> 01:13:10,721 - Have you had hepatitis? - Yes, a long time ago. 612 01:13:11,138 --> 01:13:14,141 - Other important illnesses? - No. 613 01:13:16,518 --> 01:13:18,812 - Do you eat? - What do you mean? 614 01:13:18,854 --> 01:13:21,231 - Do you have an appetite? - Yes, I do. 615 01:13:22,065 --> 01:13:24,902 You should go somewhere warm, to the seaside. 616 01:13:25,402 --> 01:13:27,988 Cold dries the skin, 617 01:13:28,030 --> 01:13:29,781 increasing these symptoms. 618 01:13:30,741 --> 01:13:35,120 I'll give you 1 Histamen before dinner. 619 01:13:35,662 --> 01:13:38,707 1 Flantadin, in the morning for a week. 620 01:13:39,166 --> 01:13:41,793 A half pill the second week. 621 01:13:48,800 --> 01:13:53,513 I take all the pills but the itch doesn't go away. 622 01:13:53,805 --> 01:13:55,766 I return to the Institute. 623 01:13:56,099 --> 01:13:59,811 The doctor's not there that day. 624 01:13:59,853 --> 01:14:02,522 Another doctor examines me. 625 01:14:04,149 --> 01:14:07,235 - Your skin's very dry, needs nourishing. - I know. 626 01:14:07,819 --> 01:14:10,489 Do you have a coin? 627 01:14:10,530 --> 01:14:12,658 A coin? 628 01:14:17,287 --> 01:14:19,498 Watch out for the moles. 629 01:14:24,836 --> 01:14:26,088 Thank you. 630 01:14:27,339 --> 01:14:32,177 Dermatographism, I think it's a food allergy. 631 01:14:32,552 --> 01:14:34,096 You can get dressed. 632 01:14:41,269 --> 01:14:44,606 Could also be a nervous problem, stress. 633 01:14:45,440 --> 01:14:47,943 The life we lead, you lead, Mr. Moretti. 634 01:14:49,361 --> 01:14:54,366 Here's your colleague's prescription: Histamen, Fitamid. 635 01:14:54,408 --> 01:14:56,493 - Should I keep taking them? - No. 636 01:14:57,202 --> 01:15:00,372 Get some lab tests: blood count, sedimentation rate, 637 01:15:00,414 --> 01:15:02,666 I’ll order them... 638 01:15:02,708 --> 01:15:07,796 Now I’ll give you Fristamin, 1 a day for a month. 639 01:15:08,422 --> 01:15:09,923 Prazene drops... 640 01:15:10,549 --> 01:15:14,469 Hematocrit 46, 641 01:15:14,511 --> 01:15:17,597 hemoglobin 16.3, 642 01:15:18,557 --> 01:15:20,642 red cell count... 643 01:15:20,684 --> 01:15:25,981 I do the blood tests, the results are normal. 644 01:15:26,023 --> 01:15:29,776 But the itching continues, even increases. 645 01:15:30,068 --> 01:15:34,197 I remember there's a famous dermatologist in Rome, 646 01:15:34,239 --> 01:15:37,826 a sort of Prince of dermatologists. 647 01:15:37,868 --> 01:15:42,456 I phone the Prince's office. 648 01:15:47,711 --> 01:15:51,048 I’d like an appointment with the Professor. 649 01:15:53,216 --> 01:15:55,135 Fully booked for three months? 650 01:15:55,177 --> 01:15:58,388 It's urgent, I have a terrible itch... 651 01:16:01,433 --> 01:16:04,311 Who's the Professor substitute, his Assistant? 652 01:16:05,562 --> 01:16:10,150 You send him the overflow... 653 01:16:10,192 --> 01:16:13,195 Fine, give me his number. 654 01:16:17,824 --> 01:16:19,701 Thanks, goodbye. 655 01:16:20,702 --> 01:16:24,122 Are you going through a stressful period? 656 01:16:24,164 --> 01:16:28,126 - Yes, because of the itching. - Drink a lot of coffee or tea? 657 01:16:28,627 --> 01:16:30,754 A lot of tea. 658 01:16:30,796 --> 01:16:36,051 Per day, drink at most one tea, one coffee or one Coke. 659 01:16:36,093 --> 01:16:37,344 I understand. 660 01:16:37,761 --> 01:16:42,724 These are the medicines the others gave me. 661 01:16:42,766 --> 01:16:45,644 I know them, good colleagues... 662 01:16:45,685 --> 01:16:47,646 I’ll give you something else: 663 01:16:47,687 --> 01:16:50,190 Anfo 3 for the shower. 664 01:16:50,899 --> 01:16:53,652 Idroskin after the shower, 665 01:16:54,152 --> 01:16:55,695 Infloran, 666 01:16:58,156 --> 01:17:03,620 a pill one day on an empty stomach. 667 01:17:06,123 --> 01:17:07,707 Atarax, 668 01:17:10,710 --> 01:17:12,963 1 pill in the morning, 669 01:17:15,132 --> 01:17:16,633 1 pill in the afternoon... 670 01:17:16,675 --> 01:17:20,053 I like to take medicines, 671 01:17:20,095 --> 01:17:21,972 and I like to think they do me good. 672 01:17:22,013 --> 01:17:24,891 But the assistant was too ill-at-ease. 673 01:17:25,475 --> 01:17:30,147 I couldn't believe him, even with goodwill. 674 01:17:30,188 --> 01:17:31,940 It was the only time 675 01:17:32,440 --> 01:17:35,861 I didn't go to the pharmacy. 676 01:17:36,820 --> 01:17:39,823 I go back to the Dermatological Institute. 677 01:17:40,490 --> 01:17:45,871 Not to the dermatology clinic, but to the allergy clinic. 678 01:17:57,340 --> 01:17:59,885 - These tests... - Watch out for moles! 679 01:18:00,343 --> 01:18:03,388 Will show you if you're allergic. 680 01:18:03,805 --> 01:18:06,600 First we test the main groups, 681 01:18:06,933 --> 01:18:11,062 foods, dust, and pollens, 682 01:18:11,104 --> 01:18:13,690 then identify the individual substances. 683 01:18:17,611 --> 01:18:21,698 For 1 week I get 30 pricks a day on my back. 684 01:18:22,115 --> 01:18:26,119 I’m allergic to milk products, 685 01:18:26,661 --> 01:18:30,081 nuts, fish and pork. 686 01:18:30,123 --> 01:18:33,668 The following days, they identify specific foods 687 01:18:33,710 --> 01:18:38,548 I’m allergic to and mustn't eat. 688 01:18:39,966 --> 01:18:42,135 I’m allergic to many foods, 689 01:18:42,177 --> 01:18:44,304 and I need a vaccine. 690 01:18:44,846 --> 01:18:50,435 These foods are: corn, barley, oats, garlic, onions, mustard, almonds, 691 01:18:50,477 --> 01:18:56,942 beans, soy, peas, parsley, artichokes, lettuce, tea, 692 01:18:56,983 --> 01:19:01,238 hops, pepper, chestnuts, salmon, sardines, tuna, 693 01:19:01,738 --> 01:19:05,533 cow milk protein, cow casein, goat casein, 694 01:19:05,575 --> 01:19:09,996 Swiss cheese, Gorgonzola, Dutch and pork. 695 01:19:13,708 --> 01:19:15,210 The itching continues, 696 01:19:15,794 --> 01:19:18,213 but, through a friend, 697 01:19:18,255 --> 01:19:22,801 I finally get to see the Prince of dermatologists, 698 01:19:23,718 --> 01:19:26,388 just before the holidays. 699 01:19:27,097 --> 01:19:29,349 Colopten 3 times a day. 700 01:19:29,849 --> 01:19:32,644 Cinazyn 20 drops after meals, 701 01:19:33,478 --> 01:19:37,357 Caprolisin one vial at 6:00 P.M. 702 01:19:37,857 --> 01:19:43,822 Before going to bed, alternate Fenistil, Xanax and Atarax. 703 01:19:43,863 --> 01:19:46,908 - One different evenings. - Alternate. - Fine. 704 01:19:47,492 --> 01:19:50,787 For legs and arms, these 4 medicines. 705 01:19:51,788 --> 01:19:54,874 For the scalp itch 1 Ecoval Scalp Fluid, 706 01:19:54,916 --> 01:19:56,543 3 drops at night. 707 01:19:56,584 --> 01:20:03,967 Remember to wash your hair daily alternating 3 shampoos I've prescribed. 708 01:20:04,467 --> 01:20:06,678 - Every day? - Every day. 709 01:20:08,221 --> 01:20:10,140 Moretti, you must help me. 710 01:20:10,724 --> 01:20:13,935 - My family and I are your fans. - Thank you. 711 01:20:13,977 --> 01:20:19,024 Help me. Though it's summer and hot, 712 01:20:19,065 --> 01:20:24,279 you must always wear knee-high cotton socks. 713 01:20:24,321 --> 01:20:27,699 - I see you don't wear socks! - Not in summer. 714 01:20:27,741 --> 01:20:31,286 Knee-high cotton socks 715 01:20:31,328 --> 01:20:34,331 and long-sleeved shirts even at the beach. 716 01:20:34,372 --> 01:20:37,667 The skin must always be in contact with cotton. 717 01:20:38,668 --> 01:20:43,089 - I’ll jot down my beach house phone. - Thank you. 718 01:20:44,341 --> 01:20:47,719 When you come back, you'll be feeling better. 719 01:20:48,345 --> 01:20:51,097 Hope so. Sorry, I showed up unexpectedly. 720 01:20:54,517 --> 01:20:58,146 Miss, a special price for Mr. Moretti. 721 01:21:01,107 --> 01:21:04,778 Creams too: Ictyane, Akerat... 722 01:21:06,946 --> 01:21:10,116 And Ictyane, Akerat and Soagen for the body. 723 01:21:10,158 --> 01:21:12,077 And Fargan cream 724 01:21:12,702 --> 01:21:16,456 and Factan, Apolar and Mavigen shampoos. 725 01:21:16,498 --> 01:21:19,209 - All three? - Yes, I have to alternate. 726 01:23:37,847 --> 01:23:45,396 One day I decide to read the information sheets in the boxes. 727 01:23:45,438 --> 01:23:46,731 Something I never do. 728 01:23:47,148 --> 01:23:48,650 Caprolisin. 729 01:23:49,692 --> 01:23:51,653 Let's see... 730 01:23:52,403 --> 01:23:57,492 Anti-hemorrhagic recommended for all hemorrhagic syndromes, 731 01:23:57,534 --> 01:24:00,912 internal hemorrhaging. 732 01:24:01,412 --> 01:24:06,417 Caprolisin: out. 733 01:24:06,459 --> 01:24:07,585 Then 734 01:24:08,836 --> 01:24:11,464 Cinazyn. 735 01:24:12,382 --> 01:24:15,385 Helps circulation, increases blood flow, 736 01:24:15,802 --> 01:24:18,805 for poor cerebral circulation... 737 01:24:18,846 --> 01:24:23,685 So Cinazyn helps circulation: out! 738 01:24:34,612 --> 01:24:37,532 Dear Diary, the vaccines have arrived. 739 01:24:38,199 --> 01:24:40,868 Lust to be sure, I call 740 01:24:41,202 --> 01:24:43,454 an immunologist friend. 741 01:24:46,374 --> 01:24:48,293 Hi Guido, it's Nanni. 742 01:24:51,296 --> 01:24:54,215 Listen, it's too long to explain. 743 01:24:54,257 --> 01:24:58,595 A month and a half ago, I had tests 744 01:24:58,636 --> 01:25:01,180 and discovered I was allergic to many foods. 745 01:25:01,472 --> 01:25:05,393 I ordered a vaccine which arrived... 746 01:25:09,939 --> 01:25:12,150 What? Anaphylactic shock? 747 01:25:12,775 --> 01:25:15,570 He tells me the vaccines are useless 748 01:25:15,612 --> 01:25:19,073 and can make you go into shock. 749 01:25:19,407 --> 01:25:22,577 That is not a food allergy... 750 01:25:22,619 --> 01:25:28,291 Allergy gives hives, a rash, not just an itch. 751 01:25:30,793 --> 01:25:33,504 I go back to seeing dermatologists. 752 01:25:33,921 --> 01:25:36,799 There's one not so famous as the Prince 753 01:25:36,841 --> 01:25:42,597 who I've heard good things about. I make an appointment with him. 754 01:25:45,433 --> 01:25:49,312 My Vespa is broken, so I take the car. 755 01:25:49,729 --> 01:25:53,608 Stuck in traffic for one hour, you get jumpy in traffic. 756 01:25:54,692 --> 01:25:57,153 You go to the doctor because you're sick, 757 01:25:58,446 --> 01:26:00,823 you pay to hear: 758 01:26:01,199 --> 01:26:05,912 you're acting like a loser. It's psychological, 759 01:26:05,953 --> 01:26:09,791 depends on you. I see you are acting like a loser. 760 01:26:09,832 --> 01:26:13,252 - Why are you scratching? - The itch... 761 01:26:13,294 --> 01:26:17,173 There's no urgent need, but you're scratching. 762 01:26:17,632 --> 01:26:22,553 Anyway, Trimeton, one shot daily for seven days. 763 01:26:22,595 --> 01:26:28,559 Fenistil, one pill at night, Legederm cream, when needed. 764 01:26:30,186 --> 01:26:31,646 Thank you. 765 01:26:31,688 --> 01:26:36,901 I've given you the treatment, but remember: it depends on you. 766 01:26:37,694 --> 01:26:44,534 Now I’m convinced that the cause of this itch is psychological. 767 01:26:45,118 --> 01:26:49,497 It depends on me, it's my fault, only my fault. 768 01:26:50,164 --> 01:26:54,043 I try to remember what happened 8 months ago 769 01:26:54,711 --> 01:26:56,963 when the itching started. 770 01:26:57,964 --> 01:27:01,426 It depends on me, he says I have to cooperate, 771 01:27:02,218 --> 01:27:04,762 force myself not to scratch. 772 01:27:05,596 --> 01:27:07,306 It all depends on me. 773 01:27:08,391 --> 01:27:12,562 If it depends on me, I’m sure I won't make it. 774 01:27:23,781 --> 01:27:26,909 My mother gave me silk pajamas 775 01:27:27,618 --> 01:27:30,413 and linen sheets to alleviate the itch. 776 01:27:30,913 --> 01:27:33,750 Now, at night, it's not just an itch. 777 01:27:33,791 --> 01:27:36,919 I wake up after half an hour. 778 01:27:37,336 --> 01:27:40,631 I sleep an hour and a half, two hours. 779 01:27:45,470 --> 01:27:50,183 I've been treating this lady... 780 01:27:50,224 --> 01:27:53,936 After a few sessions, her cholesterol went down. 781 01:27:53,978 --> 01:27:57,565 Satisfying. 782 01:27:58,232 --> 01:28:02,236 I’m at loss with my itch. 783 01:28:02,278 --> 01:28:08,367 Avoid all red foods: tomatoes, carrots, oranges, strawberries. 784 01:28:08,409 --> 01:28:10,369 Red foods, nil! 785 01:28:11,162 --> 01:28:15,458 Last night I didn't stop scratching... 786 01:28:15,792 --> 01:28:18,878 You've hurt your big toe. 787 01:28:18,920 --> 01:28:23,424 The toe is the head: you wanted to hurt your head last night. 788 01:28:24,217 --> 01:28:26,719 So should I put a cream on it? 789 01:28:27,053 --> 01:28:29,806 Use a compress with cabbage leaves. 790 01:28:29,847 --> 01:28:35,895 Take the leaves, dip them in boiling water and make a compress. It's better. 791 01:28:35,937 --> 01:28:37,730 I see. Perfect. 792 01:28:41,567 --> 01:28:46,155 I didn't know if those massages would do me good, 793 01:28:46,197 --> 01:28:48,366 but they'd do no harm. 794 01:28:48,825 --> 01:28:51,202 It was pleasant, 795 01:28:51,244 --> 01:28:54,121 that half hour relaxed me. 796 01:28:59,710 --> 01:29:04,465 The reflexologist prescribed calendula cream, 797 01:29:04,507 --> 01:29:08,386 the Ribes Nigrum and Tilia Tomentosa 798 01:29:08,427 --> 01:29:13,015 and told me to take bran baths. 799 01:29:33,411 --> 01:29:37,206 I continue to lose weight and I get night sweats. 800 01:29:38,165 --> 01:29:41,711 I go to a Chinese Medical Center. 801 01:29:41,752 --> 01:29:45,756 Two doctors, Chu Hu and Yang, examine me. 802 01:29:45,798 --> 01:29:50,720 They take my pulse, then trade places. 803 01:30:14,285 --> 01:30:16,245 Have you been exposed to wind? 804 01:30:16,287 --> 01:30:21,208 Wind? Well, I ride a Vespa, but Rome isn't that windy... 805 01:30:21,250 --> 01:30:27,006 Ln traditional Chinese medicine itch corresponds to wind in the blood. 806 01:30:28,633 --> 01:30:32,094 Stick out your tongue. It's white, sticky. 807 01:30:38,893 --> 01:30:40,811 Fallen kidneys? 808 01:30:41,395 --> 01:30:43,230 Fallen kidneys? 809 01:30:49,028 --> 01:30:53,658 Dr. Yang asks if you're overindulged in sex. 810 01:30:53,699 --> 01:30:55,034 No. 811 01:31:14,553 --> 01:31:16,931 - Hurt you? - A bit. 812 01:31:34,407 --> 01:31:37,201 The last two, okay? 813 01:31:46,252 --> 01:31:47,878 Very good. 814 01:31:58,264 --> 01:32:02,268 Dr. Yang leaves me alone in the room. 815 01:32:03,769 --> 01:32:06,272 He leaves me for 15 minutes, 816 01:32:06,313 --> 01:32:09,025 I even doze off. 817 01:32:09,608 --> 01:32:11,944 Then he returns. 818 01:32:14,655 --> 01:32:16,782 - How are you? - Fine. 819 01:32:26,333 --> 01:32:29,128 - You feel a little heat? - Yes. 820 01:33:13,380 --> 01:33:15,925 For now, acupuncture has no effect 821 01:33:15,966 --> 01:33:18,636 on the itch or the insomnia. 822 01:33:19,261 --> 01:33:22,473 At the Chinese Medical Center they're nice. 823 01:33:22,515 --> 01:33:27,520 There's a pleasant atmosphere, so I keep trying. 824 01:33:31,273 --> 01:33:33,859 Hold tight, like that. 825 01:33:44,995 --> 01:33:47,331 - How's that? - Fine. 826 01:33:51,877 --> 01:33:53,379 - Does it hurt? - Yes. 827 01:34:00,594 --> 01:34:02,680 - Can I turn it up? - Yes. 828 01:34:08,269 --> 01:34:12,273 To treat the itch they try electric acupuncture, 829 01:34:13,482 --> 01:34:17,153 with something they call a "plum flower needle". 830 01:34:18,320 --> 01:34:20,531 But Dr. Yang notices my cough, 831 01:34:20,573 --> 01:34:23,367 says the treatment's not working, isn't correct. 832 01:34:24,201 --> 01:34:28,956 It would be best to do a chest X-ray. 833 01:34:28,998 --> 01:34:30,916 Take your jacket off. 834 01:34:31,917 --> 01:34:33,919 The t-shirt too? 835 01:34:33,961 --> 01:34:36,714 No, just the jacket, it has buttons. 836 01:34:39,592 --> 01:34:43,179 Hold the box, 837 01:34:43,846 --> 01:34:46,557 chin slightly lifted. 838 01:34:55,357 --> 01:34:57,276 Breathe. 839 01:34:57,318 --> 01:34:58,611 Hold it. 840 01:34:58,986 --> 01:35:00,988 Don't breathe. 841 01:35:02,573 --> 01:35:07,077 The technician develops the X-ray, 842 01:35:08,037 --> 01:35:12,541 Tells Silvia there's a mass around the lung 843 01:35:13,083 --> 01:35:16,795 and says to get a CAT scan right away. 844 01:35:24,929 --> 01:35:26,555 Is it disgusting? 845 01:35:27,348 --> 01:35:30,059 - No, tastes like anisette. - Ln that case... 846 01:35:35,105 --> 01:35:37,608 Don't breathe, don't move. 847 01:35:44,281 --> 01:35:45,699 Breathe. 848 01:35:48,202 --> 01:35:50,037 Stop, don't breathe. 849 01:35:56,835 --> 01:35:58,504 Breathe. 850 01:36:02,132 --> 01:36:04,093 Stop, don't breathe. 851 01:36:09,098 --> 01:36:10,599 Breathe. 852 01:36:11,016 --> 01:36:13,560 While I’m getting the CAT scan of my head, 853 01:36:13,602 --> 01:36:17,481 the radiologist examines the chest scan. 854 01:36:18,023 --> 01:36:20,359 He talks about it with Silvia and Angelo. 855 01:36:20,818 --> 01:36:24,363 Says he thinks I have a sarcoma of the lung. 856 01:36:24,405 --> 01:36:28,867 They ask what a sarcoma is. "Lung cancer." 857 01:36:28,909 --> 01:36:34,790 According to him, any attempt at treatment would be useless. 858 01:36:36,583 --> 01:36:41,255 Luckily, the radiologist guessed wrong. 859 01:36:41,922 --> 01:36:44,883 They operate two days later 860 01:36:45,718 --> 01:36:49,013 and a doctor friend present at the operation 861 01:36:49,513 --> 01:36:52,850 says later that the surgeon, 862 01:36:52,891 --> 01:36:57,521 looking at a piece he'd cut out, 863 01:36:57,563 --> 01:36:58,814 said: 864 01:36:59,565 --> 01:37:03,819 "I’ll bet my ball this is Hodgkin's lymphoma." 865 01:37:03,861 --> 01:37:05,904 "Not both balls, but one yes." 866 01:37:06,530 --> 01:37:11,076 Hodgkin's is a cancer of the lymphatic system, 867 01:37:11,118 --> 01:37:12,786 a treatable cancer. 868 01:37:14,330 --> 01:37:21,253 One day, at home, I leaf through a handbook of medicine. 869 01:37:21,795 --> 01:37:25,090 Under "Lymphoma" it says: 870 01:37:25,591 --> 01:37:30,679 "Symptoms include itch, weight loss, and sweating." 871 01:37:31,305 --> 01:37:36,393 I have learned one thing from this story. 872 01:37:36,435 --> 01:37:38,479 Or rather two: 873 01:37:39,688 --> 01:37:47,404 first, that doctors know how to talk but don't know how to listen. 874 01:37:47,446 --> 01:37:53,369 And now I’m surrounded by all the useless medicines 875 01:37:53,869 --> 01:37:56,830 I took over the course of a year. 876 01:37:57,998 --> 01:38:04,963 The second thing I learned is that in the morning, before breakfast, 877 01:38:05,297 --> 01:38:08,008 it's healthy to drink a glass of water. 878 01:38:08,384 --> 01:38:12,846 They say it's good for the kidneys, or something... 879 01:38:12,888 --> 01:38:14,390 Anyway, it's healthy. 880 01:38:16,308 --> 01:38:21,397 Well then: a light cappuccino, a roll... 881 01:38:21,438 --> 01:38:23,649 And a glass of water.